Dost thou dare enter the demented psyche of Nicole

-Death is only the beginning;
Life is always changing, constantly moving. One door closes, another opens. There is never an end, only a beginning. Good things come to those who wait, and the good always seem to die young. There is a lot in life I have yet to experience, and then there is a lot in life that I already have. I'm trying day by day to improve on things I know that I can change, and to forget about the things that I know I cannot.
If I know what love is, it is because of you.
Being in love isn’t about finding somebody that you could live your life with, but somebody that you could never imagine living it without.
I love you so very much
And I will always love you, and we will make it past this.
We will be living our lives together in no time.
This is not the end, but the beginning. <3 XXXXXXXXX

If I know what love is, it is because of you.

Being in love isn’t about finding somebody that you could live your life with, but somebody that you could never imagine living it without.

I love you so very much

And I will always love you, and we will make it past this.

We will be living our lives together in no time.

This is not the end, but the beginning. <3 XXXXXXXXX

crystaltwinklebell:

Women, real women used to look like this back in history, and were always loved this way.
So why, oh fucking why are they trying to make this:

and this:

and this:

be what we should look like today? Is this what men and women want? 

The one all the way to the right is the best looking one. I’d be happy to look like that. Why would you want sticks and skin? You can get that with a blow up doll filled with a tree branch. 
I’m just saying if I was a guy or even if I liked girls, I’d want them with some meat on their bones, I wouldn’t want to have to be concerned that if I go out with them on a windy day, that she’ll get blown away in the winds. In addition, I would rather be the way I am than skinny like that.

crystaltwinklebell:

Women, real women used to look like this back in history, and were always loved this way.

So why, oh fucking why are they trying to make this:

and this:

and this:

be what we should look like today? Is this what men and women want? 

The one all the way to the right is the best looking one. I’d be happy to look like that. Why would you want sticks and skin? You can get that with a blow up doll filled with a tree branch. 

I’m just saying if I was a guy or even if I liked girls, I’d want them with some meat on their bones, I wouldn’t want to have to be concerned that if I go out with them on a windy day, that she’ll get blown away in the winds. In addition, I would rather be the way I am than skinny like that.

“I have you in my phone as NO, so that I can be reminded of all the pain you have caused me…”

Thinking about the past

 Makes me sad....
You&#8217;re my love
My life
My heart
My everything
We were meant to be
It was fate
&lt;3

You’re my love My life My heart My everything We were meant to be It was fate <3

this moment

As I sit here and think, the only thoughts in my mind are about you. January 13th is approaching quickly, a lot quicker than I had anticipated. Its not a bad thing, I just keep wondering how we are going to react at our first meeting, first sight….its so nerve racking…but exciting. To finally be able to touch you, to hold you, to examine your mannerisms, to take you in completely. I love you so much, and this is the first step to our lives. I cannot wait!

Bluh

I’ve been doing it again…allowing my mind to suffocate itself with ridiculous thoughts…Why must I continue doing this? Surly life will allow me to live happily without the benefit of a doubt.

Doubt…that horrible seed that anybody could easily plant into your mind, and sadly that’s all that it takes. One little ounce of doubt can flourish into something unimaginable, and horrible. I just want the reassurance that everything is going to work out in the end…That this will all be worth something. I’m tired of all of the disappointment, and let downs. 

I just for once would like something in my life to make sense! You make sense…complete and total sense….Although life may not sometimes, you seem to bring me back into reality, which up until now I’ve never much enjoyed. The thought of the real world is just too frightening sometimes. I just want to love you unconditionally…I want to take care of you, and hold you, and kiss you. To finally be able to touch you will be so joyous. I am counting down the days. I’m just so scared that I’m going to end up falling on my face yet again. But I’m putting myself out there, and taking the biggest risk I’ve ever taken in my entire life. All for love…All for you..All for us…