Bluh
I’ve been doing it again…allowing my mind to suffocate itself with ridiculous thoughts…Why must I continue doing this? Surly life will allow me to live happily without the benefit of a doubt.
Doubt…that horrible seed that anybody could easily plant into your mind, and sadly that’s all that it takes. One little ounce of doubt can flourish into something unimaginable, and horrible. I just want the reassurance that everything is going to work out in the end…That this will all be worth something. I’m tired of all of the disappointment, and let downs.
I just for once would like something in my life to make sense! You make sense…complete and total sense….Although life may not sometimes, you seem to bring me back into reality, which up until now I’ve never much enjoyed. The thought of the real world is just too frightening sometimes. I just want to love you unconditionally…I want to take care of you, and hold you, and kiss you. To finally be able to touch you will be so joyous. I am counting down the days. I’m just so scared that I’m going to end up falling on my face yet again. But I’m putting myself out there, and taking the biggest risk I’ve ever taken in my entire life. All for love…All for you..All for us…
